for once in my life, I love someone so deeply, that I ready to give anything to you.
but then it all fade. It's like every step that I make, every thing I do, every word I said, never have a meaning to you. It's almost 3 years, and my heart still feels the pain.
I don't care about the time I spent for you, day and night, when I was working, when the clock tells it already late night.
I don't care about the money I spent for you. I know we're separated by distance, but I do my best to close the distance gap. Every video call I made, every little bits I sent to you, just to make you feel near.
I don't care about how you are unemployed, how you easily bored, how demanding you are.
What I care is, the words that you said. I hold on to it, like it was a life saving rope. Every promise you made, like it was my life. Every smile you gave me, that keep my life moving. That is the things that I care of.
but i never thought. everything I've done has come to nothing. everything i fight for, is useless. and what i believe is bullshit.
right now, what's left is hate. i don't want to see you happy. i don't want to see you smile. i want you to suffer for the rest of your life. i want you to die.
please.. die. just die. so i don't need to think about you anymore.
with a lot of hate,
someone that you hurt.
